My deepest condolences to Pile様 for the passing of her closest friend, hopefully Pile様 can pick herself up. (One of your oshimen will be cheering for you!!) And also hope that her friend will be at a better place.
“In the recent fan meeting and stage interview, I’m ecstatic to be able to meet my fans up close＾＾
Able to see everyone’s reaction and interaction, able to see everyone’s smile, made me felt that I’d brought joy to everyone. Muse’s felt this was amazing, actually we had the same feeling during Osaka fan meeting.
I wanted to convey to everyone that I’m greatly gratified and this made my heart skipped a beat. And I’ll work harder!
During the past 2 days at Osaka fan meeting, I received news about the passing on of my dearest friend.
I still remembered the last time I met my friend, my friend was very healthy and active.
My friend sent me a message stated “Love You” in the morning before the passing.
Nothing more… Just this last message…
I was engrossed with my work, so I only glanced at it.
Because our relationship was excellent.
And that was the last message I ever received from her..
Tears flown down my cheeks the moment I heard her passing.
Very apologetic to the 2 members at that time, at the same time, I was saved by them.
They stayed and tried to cheer me up.
During that time, I didn’t want to burden those members, and I must do my job well for the sake of everyone.
Everyone gave me the strength, I stopped crying and calm down.
Until nightfall, the end of the fan meeting, I went to the back stage and one of the member (with usual normal tone) told me: （ひとりのメンバーがぱいちゃん頑張ったねお疲れ様）”Pile-chan you’ve worked hard enough”
I received message of encouragement when I got back home.
During day 2, I tried not to dwell about it but was thus again daunted by this unpleasant incident. I was made to temporary forgotten about this incident by the other 7 members (Not the 2 members mentioned earlier).
Most gentle, happy, interesting, outgoing members once made me laughed again.
They’re impressive, really impressive.
After the evening fan meeting, we combined 2 tables and had our meals.
I was able to smile thanks to them, but might have felt that the smile wasn’t natural.
Fan meeting was interesting, personally felt that the past 2 days, these members was the best cure.
Not forgetting the most important was the smile on everyone’s face during the event.
Thanks to your smiles, your support, you guys made me moved forward to whatever stands in my way.
My best cure are: The Members, Staffs and everyone’s bright smile.
When singing “Donna Toki mo Zutto” （どんなときもずっと）, I deeply felt the lyrics:
嬉しいから会いたいよ (Because I’m happy, I want to meet you)
寂しいから会いたいよ (Because I’m lonely, I want to meet you)
楽しい悲しいそして (Whether times of fun or sadness)
会いたくなるんだどんなときも (I will want to meet you)
どんなときも (no matter when)
This made me realized regardless where am I, I’ll still have the precious supports from you guys.
And definitely, members were still the best.
Wanted more and definitely experienced the cheers from everyone.
Even though it was my personal issue, I felt everyone’s genuine intention. And I wanted to share this story to everyone.
Because of you, I was able to regain my usual lively self.
Really grateful to everyone.
Truly sorry to update my blog with this unpleasant incident after being inactive for quite a while.
This was just for my self-satisfaction, however from today onward, I’ll be optimistically working hard for this opportunity you’ve given to me, and made me realized the most important thing, deeply gratitude.
You’re my ever most favorite and loving friend
So Pilers! Remember to x2 your cheers and voice during the upcoming Pile ファンミーティング 2015 at Tiat Sky Hall.
Article translated by: 「Amusu」 – Piler